$$$$$$$$.....MONEY MONEY MONEY...$$$$$$$$$$$

Ok so one of my goals is to spend more wisely, I don't get myself into trouble or really ever spend where I've had to pay interest on my spending but somehow everytime I go to the store, especially places like walmart I spend way more then I want and do way too much impulse buying so my goal yesterday while doing errands, was to just get what's on my list....what do I do??  I buy a 40 dollar pool for Rilan and a 260 dollar camera for me and a few other extras.....the other camera we had broke the lens off and I really want a camera and this is the one I wanted so I'd probably buy those things again but wow...I really need to work on this.  You know what's really scary to me though the people running our country are so much worse at this then me!!  Our national debt as of feb 11 is 12.3 trillion!! Thats 12,349,324,464,284..

40,615 for every person in the US and if you include the liabilitys the government has like social security, medicare and employee retirment and veterans benifts its 195,152 per person (http://www.justfacts.com/nationaldebt.asp) ... I don't know about you but I don't have that hanging around!! Plus unless we do something it will get so much worse in the future being 79.7 trillion in 10 years, 20 years 107.1 trillion and in 50 years 260 trillion....so just tax the rich?...sorry but even they won't be able to pay that if things continue as they are and if we were to take ALL their revenue pretty soon.. I personally feel taxing anywhere near 50 percent even for the rich is corrupt and its way more if you add up all the tax sourses, for those actually willing to pay...I read an article dated nov. 15, 2008 when the debt was a little over 10 1/2 trillion that stated that for every man women and children to pay this off they'd have to work 2.6 years at min wage income free and if we take away saddling the children and retirees that's 2-4 years of slavery to pay this off and that's assuming none of them live off the gov't dont pay taxes or such ( a big assumption and in- correct one)...well you say we're not paying for it....hmm if your paying taxes yeah we are and just paying the interest alone we are paying 300 billion/year towards the debt, just the interest, if it continues as is, it will be 800 billion/yr in just 2 YEARS...that's almost a trillion going just to interest...HOLY COW!!!! 

I'm sorry but when the gov't says it wants to take on Health Care I say HECK NO!!!   I know there are problems with health care, and Ideally I'd love everybody to be covered and not have to worry about it much but you know most people will abuse whats free, that they don't have to work for and then their freedoms will be taken away to judge for themselves and do what they want for their health but take away all the reasons other then financial and because of irresponsible financial managment by gov't officials over many years I say NO WAY!!  the stimulus bill added 10000 to every personal person's responsibility for the debt and was so full of extra  "impulse"  spends that the bill wasn't even supposed to be about...I'm sorry but when people say it's urgent to act now.....that's bull when your spending that kind of money IT IS URGENT that we get our gov't spending down and be responsible, it is just not something that we can take lightly and I'm sorry to say but it is taken extremely lightly...how when Medicare, medicade, the post office, social security etc are all going bankrupt,(exuse me are bankrupt and insustainalbe) should we assume we can take on EVERYONE's healthcare and have it not be something where it's a serious step down..?????  Common sense just is not there, I'm sorry, I know they are talking about reforming it or listening to Republican ideas more and in different debt free universe I'd say cool but....I don't care if it's the republican's idea or the democorats or the sasquash's it just isn't something we can even think about affording right now.. It's rediculous.   Ok I'm going off on this and trust me there is pages more I want to ramble on about, but basically I just want to say,  like any household out of control with spending or person they are ROBBING THE FUTURE for less important wants and needs or EXTRAs and it's not just robbing it, it maybe in this case DESTROYING the future..I'm sorry but I just don't know how it will be sustainable if things keep going as they are, it's not just Obama, the problem was getting serious probably when he was still in diapers, but why can't he stand up now and do what's necessary and prudent and wise instead of continue bad decisions and policys and examples at an alarmingly faster pase then any president before him???  ACK!!!  Money Money Money.... doesn't grow on trees!

Running....maybe not just a dream.

      I was testing myself on the treadmill the other day on a workout and wanted to see how far I could run...how far away I was from my running goal and I was happy and suprised to find I ran 2 miles with out much struggle in 9:30 min/hr pace with a 3.0 incline.  I then tested myself the day after in my next workout day and made it 2.5 miles in about a 9.08mi/hr.  pace....that was more of a struggle though but I am feeling like making it through a 5k is now attainable and maybe even under a 10mi/hr pace!!  Of course I don't know running on the street maybe harder then on a treadmill but I'm happy in fact I signed up for a 5k on April 4th!!   So now it's do or die.  Ack!  :). 

HEALTH TALK

One of my biggest goals at the moment is to regain a better weight and healthier eating habits.   I've found my biggest enemay with that is not taking time to prepare something healthy and snacking...  I gained 40 pounds bieng pregnant and still have 15 of them I lost 20 soon after Rilan was born but yo yo'd around and actully gained 5-7 back but I've been working hard to loose it by just tracking all my calories, shooting for 1300 for one week at a time then a small break to about 1500-1800 cal for awhile and choosing small healthy meals is what is helping me get it off plus I bought a treadmill and am doing the personal trainer weight loss exercises from there at least 3 times a week.  I figure 30 min 3 times a week is very doable and it's made a big diff in how I feel, I find exercising rewarding and eating right too but eating is tougher I don't like to keep track of everything and I love my sweets.   I really want to be and feel healthier though and not having such a big pooch  and looking better is deffinetly motivating too.  I just can't and will not keep these pounds!!! 
My goal too is to run a 5k just simply get through one with out walking around May and then for the 2011 family Vacation run another one in Disneyworld in January improving my time from the one this spring.  Those are my goals right now get to at least my pre pregnancy weight (which was already 20 above healthy)...15 to go!  and continue exercising 3-4times a week and running the 5ks. 

Marriage that blessed awangment that dweam within a dweam......

     For you non Princess Bride buffs that quote is from Princess Bride...:).....For any tuning in....My thoughts today will be about Marriage.   It is one of the greatest things in life but it's hard too, for some reason I notice the negative things more and dwell on them and sometimes just unwisely snap and get mad and say something not cool sometimes.    So that is one of my biggest goals is to perfect how I deal with frusterations in marriage.  My husband is wonderful and wonderful to me but he has quirks that can drive you mad too plus though I don't want to be back in that place.....I love the depth and comfort gained........I do sometimes miss the excitment and newness faze you know???    Well something I did the other day when the song 50 ways to leave your lover came in my head I decided to write 50 reasons I love my lover...it was very healthy, I realized once more how very lucky I am to have a good guy who loves me is commited, is kind to me is responsible in providing for us, is fun, is a good father etc etc.....   :)

Revival of the personal blog......

I have decided to once again start blogging here, but instead of Anderson Adventures it will be my own personal blog of goals... and yes some family stories and miscelanious, random thoughts and such. I felt like doing the family blog, sometimes facebook and other stuff was just too much but I think it would be a good place to hold my goals accountable and so I'm reviving this poor almost dead blog......any suggestions for new names? I don't promise to be a good blogger I'll probably still suck but oh well it's now more for me anyways.....hopefully more to come soon :).

3 Weeks To Go! Baby Rambles...

I have only a few weeks left before Rilan's due date! It's crazy to think how time has gone so fast in so many ways and in other ways it seems like an eternity I have been pregnant. My stomach is now very big....everyone asks when I am due, is this my first, am I having twins or they just look at my big belly........sometimes I like it when people ask me questions or don't mind it at least most of the time, once in awhile it iritates me now......I think I'm getting more and more hormonal though lately.....I have hot flashes and break down and cry for no reason wierd things like that! I can only sleep in a few positions well two and have a hard time not sleeping on my hands wich from the swelling and carpel tunnel are pretty much permanently numb now....I hope that goes away I just can't see getting surgery before having the baby so hopefully that doesn't bite me in the butt......I really am thankfull to be pregnant but I'm ready to have my body back and get it in better shape and meet this little one that keeps moving around in my stomach. It really is weird to me to think I have a baby in my stomach, it just doesn't seem really real that way yet I guess. I'm not too eager to go through labor though so when it is it is........I'm going to try and go without an epidural........I wonder if I'll even last 10 minutes but honestly the thought of a needle in my spine sounds less appealing to me then horrific cramps and I want to experience it as it is naturaly...yeah I know I may change my mind fast on all that.....all that really matters to me is that he gets here safely and healthy :).

pie time and other tid bits

So I haven't posted on this blog for months as Sarah pointed out....I'm mostly blogging to myself here I feel most of the time so I don't do it much but It's kindof fun to write tidbits here and there so I will have to get better. I didn't mean to download the nice swimsuit pic of me but I was critically analyzing the other horrible ones and downloaded this with the others on mistake it actually doesn't show well how fat and sassy I just realized I look in my sexy prego swimsuit (it just makes me look constipated).....I just love feeling fat as it's been a thorn in my side much of my life but you know what I have tried to eat healthy in a lot of ways and its just what it is so I will accept the things I cannot change and change the things I can when I can....I'm not going to stop living life or even swimming or even trying to eat be healthy just because the sight is not beutifull to behold and I'm not going to blame myself excessivly either it is what it is...people can think I eat bad all day and never exercise but thats not true so whatever. I'm probably the only one that cares too much anyways how I look but I need to just forgive myself for my imperfections too and do the best with what is and let others think negatively if they want and try and be nice and understanding anyhow......I don't know why it's so hard for many people women especially to just feel good about ourselves when we don't look act perfectly all the time....you know my body is producing a whole new life that seems healthy and I feel bad because of my weight or the fact that he's bigger then he should be and stuff like that that is so dumb the big things that matter seem great so I rock for bieng able to make a baby and even if I'm horrible and cry and complain and pout and sneer wich I'm going to try really hard not to do during delivery but even if I do I'm going to tell myself I rock If I make it through it.. I'm just going to plain tell myself I rock and I'm awesome more often!! Ok wow I really rambled and vented on that one............On to other things wich this post was meant to be about anyways :)...I finally am posting pics of Rilan's room wich I painted all by myself and the paint job turned out cute I think, I made the posters and decorations too, and put together the bassinet, yes I rock see I'm bieng positive about me....I'm not sure I love completly how the decorations are arranged truthfully, but it turned out pretty cute too and I love projects like that, most of the pics on the painting are on the family blog

Here's a really cute picture of Thain with his kids and their friends at the park, we've been doing a few little picnics at the park lately ( but that is turning into swimming and lagoon trips now I think ) the kids love to grab his hat or involve him in some fun play a lot, he can sure be a lot of fun for them.

I try not to make many treats as when I do I eat way too much as I make them or as they sit around but I do enjoy baking and don't do it enough anymore so I decided to bake more and ambitiously make a pie for after Sunday dinner, Sunday is the day I actually cook a meal or two, but anyhow it was a lemon Coconut or Macaroon pie and I had to improvise as I didn't have whipping cream just some whip cream so I put a little of that in and then ended up putting corn starch in it and cooking it over the stove instead of in the pie as I was afraid it wouldn't solidify at all without the whipping cream and the pie crust was already as brown as I wanted it, so it turned out too dense but the flavor is really good and I didn't use their crust recipee but my Mom's delicous one.....It is sure full of butter and sugar and all the things we all don't need too much of but anyone looking for a good splurgy dessert once in awhile I would recommend this recipee especially done the right way if it was fluffier I think it would have been perfect, taste wise anyways and I wasn't sure how I felt about lemon and coccunt together but flavor wise it worked well...:)